Things I am Grateful for Today
- Met bk for lunch at 59
- Wrote and revamped some words in the about page
- Tomorrow is Sunday, I’ll get to meet my LG mates again
The final diagnosis of the website is out. This is freaking bad news. The hardest thing about failing in a business is not just finances and time, the hardest thing is to let go of your team members who have been working alongside you through thick and thin. It is really not a nice feeling to have. Today is one of the shittest days I’ve gone through in 2019.
I have yet to tell Tonie and Lawrence. I just told them earlier today that I’ll be still be keeping them and that our website is heading in a new direction. I cannot bear myself to take the initiative to tell them they wouldn’t be working for the site at the end of May 2019. I have told enough people this week already. I even went to the extend to lie to some of them because I didn’t want to look bad. I told some of the writers that the site is changing in direction therefore I have to let them go. I didn’t want to tell them that the site is bleeding money every month and I am not willing to bleed any more money.
I lied because of my stupid ego and I didn’t want to embarrass myself. That’s a stupid lie and I can’t hide it anymore. The final diagnosis is out and it is time to face the truth… whether I like it or not.. I have to face it. Face it, I will.